So Far Gone

So I've been busy with school to really blog but too much has been going on in my life that I need to just vent. Since I'm too furious to ever say this to his face without saying something I will later in life regret, I rather just write them down here....

When it all comes down to it, you've changed. The guy I once enjoyed spending time with and talking to is now a big shot wannabe. Yea I said it, wannabe. I don't know what your trying to be, but it's not you. Trust I know. You don't answer your phone, your rude, you don't care about anything, your lazy. Who are you?!?! Do you even know? You can't even hold a conversation with me. You claim "I'm crazy and won't understand" but in all reality, your just scared. Scared that you actually liked me and was falling for me. Scared that perhaps I was actually a good catch. I never nagged you, accused you of anything. I always let you do YOU, and that you couldn't handle. I was the girl that you always tweeted about, the ideal girl that you wanted. You had her and what did you do, run away. SMH such a typical boy. And the sad thing about it, you couldn't even be a man about it and say it to my face how you felt. Instead, you hid behind your lies, games, and this new "you." I see you moving on up and got your own spot now and your boys are always around and he got your new little crew of friends, but are they worth it all. Worth the lies and deceit that you gave me? Worth the pain and anger you given me since we've been back here. They must really have a big effect on you, considering how they've change the "old you". The you I enjoyed talking to, chilling with, watching movies with. The you that was generally a good person. I've told you from day one, I'm not like other girls and you never understood what I meant. I still see till this day that you don't get me. Why? Because you ran and told my friend how you felt but was scared to tell me because "I'm crazy". PLEASE! You couldn't tell me because you didn't have the balls to. Either that or you just don't care. But it's ok. Unlike other girls, I don't keep fighting on for someone that's not worth it. Your just a stepping stone for another one. Yea the time we shared was good, but best believe it can be replace and it did, the next day.

You can call me bitter, crazy, or whatever you want. In all reality, I'm right. I'm not even the only one to notice, but since I once cared about you, I don't mind telling you about yourself. With me writing this I can assure that I have put you and all the memories of us behind me and have officially moved on :-)

21 Questions

1.) If I was sick, would you take care of me?

2.) If I had a bad day, could I count on you to put a smile on my face?

3.) If I was lonely, would you stay the night with me?

4.) If I saw you with your boys, would you acknowledge me?

5.) Would you even give me a hug? Maybe a kiss?

6.) If someone asked you about me, would you claim me?

7.) Should I even be claiming you?

8.) Is this all about sex?

9.) Do I ask for too much?

10.) Do I take us more serious than you?

11.) Should I be moving on?

12.) Will we ever go on a date?

13.) Am I holding on to false hopes and dreams?

14.) Is this as far as it's going to go?

15.) Am I asking for too much from you?

16.) Am I the only one?

17.) Am I more into this than you?

18.) Is it safe to be all about you?

19.) Am I over exaggerating?

20.) Do I put in more than you do?

21.) If I ever needed you for something, could I count on you?

If only these questions could be answered, NO BULLSHIT, strictly correct, I could move forward with my life, knowing what was really going on.

Ready

With all the rain today, there was nothing else to do but listen to Trey Songz's new album "Ready". Once again I am impress! With his steady mixtapes circulating the web, Songz definitely brought an appropriate album to his fans. Although there are some songs from his mixtape, the album definitely serves it's purpose. While listening to the album all day in steady repetition, I already have my favorite song on the album, "Jupiter Love".