It's Bout That Time...

So the end of the semester couldn't have come at a better time.  Things are just getting out of hand! I went to visit one of my big brothers the other night and we ended up talking bout things and how close we were last year and he got me really thinking....did I really change??  Now I know part of growing up means maturing, but what if I changed for the worse rather than the best.  Little things that never matter to me now means the world to me.  For example, the way I look, what clothes I'm wearing, do people see me, how other people look....that was never me!! Changing is a good thing most of the time, but sometimes it can turn into something bad! I'm glad my brother gave me a reality check on this because who better to tell you about yourself than they people you call family and friends.  

Now my brother talking to me was one of the few things that have been bothering me lately.  You can tell Spring/Summer is here because guys are out on the prawl! Dudes I haven't talked to all semester are coming out of their shell bold as ever!! I don't understand yall! Now I know I can be a flirt sometimes...but this semester I've been on my chill status for real, cuz I'm still feeling HIM. But these other guys are really on some other stuff.  What ever happen to dudes and girls just being friends and just chilling?? Unless I given you any reason for you to think I like you, don't get bold...PLEASE! 

Besides from the dudes getting bold down here, I've just been to myself a lot lately. Call me emotional, but when stuff is bothering me, I just want to be to myself!! That' s my way of dealing with whatever is going on in my life.   What bothers me the most is when people constantly ask me what's wrong...if I felt like saying it out loud, I would.  I don't hide things just to hide them, sometimes I just need time to myself....everyone does. Even the most sociable people, need to have some alone time once in a while. Here in college, it's hard to have alone time, because your always with at least one other person, whether it's your room mate, best friend, boo, or whatever. In order to stay sane, every one just needs time to their selves. With this summer coming, I'm sure I will get a lot of this.