Phenomenal Woman

My cousin came into town this week and I must say I'm really excited to see her!! Although she is a way older than me, she's definitely a role model that I look up to. Only in her early 30s and she is already an executive Vice President of Bank of America. The goals and things she has already accomplish are things that I look forward to doing in the near future. We went out to dinner last night and she gave me advice on a lot of things. One in particular she talked to me about definitely help me with this low key problem I've been having lately. No it is not boy problems this time (I've decided to just let that be, if it's meant to be then it will be). It was about my weight and my appearance. Now I know I'm not the skinniest girl and I'm not the biggest girl, but for some reason I just haven't been happy with the way I look. I've always been self conscious even tho I tried to hide it, every since high school when I was really big. I refused to take pictures up till my junior year, after I had lost a lot of weight. I've been able to keep most of it off, but being in school, where Taco Bell and McDonald's are only a drive aways, its harder to do that. Not only do I recognize it, but when I come home, that all I hear from my family, "Tamara look at that lil pouch" " Tamara your face is getting fatter!" "Tamara, are you pregnant?!?" It's crazy how much my family criticizes me about my weight. Although I don't let what people say really affect me, but when it comes from my family, I can't help but to feel some type of way about it.

While I was at Dinner with my cousin last night we talked about everything that was going on in each other life and I told her about how sometimes when I go out with my girls shopping I get upset because I can't fit any of the dresses that I really want or tops because of my boobs. It might seem crazy to some girls b/c they always say "Man I wish I could have bigger boobs" and I always tell them, they are not what it's cracked up to be!! Dudes pay more attention to them than they do your face! While I was describing how I felt to my cousin, she began to laugh at me because she went through the same thing growing up! She was telling me about how she had to learn how turn the parts of her body that she considered liabilities to assets. I thought that was a good analogy considering we both were focus in the business field After speaking to my cousin I finally learn to ignore the negative comments and to be proud of what I have. God gave it to me for a reason, so I need to learn how to use it to benefit me instead of holding me back.